a new generation of dreamers



“Hello, my name is Alexandra Farber. I’m a sophomore Speech Communications and Advertising double major from Britton, South Dakota. Today, I’ll be working with the College of Arts and Sciences.”

This is how every session began. With endless smiles and a pink fanny-pack on my hip, I welcomed hundreds and hundreds of new students to our university at New Student Orientation.

This summer, I served as an Orientation Leader, primarily for the College of Arts and Sciences. I felt at home among the dreamers: future architects and chemists and linguists and economists, all listening to my words, welcoming them to a bright future at South Dakota State University. You may wonder how these new freshman, the ever-so-present hashtag of #newjacks16, impact your life at our university. I guarantee that these new students, these fresh faces of first-day nerves and lanyards around necks and students far too excited to eat at Chick-fil-A for the first time, can make a difference in your life, in our university, and in our world.

That new student may challenge your professor to think in a new way. That freshman may use their voice in student government to impact change for all students. That student may become the university’s largest benefactor in 30 years and create a brand new facility on our campus. That student may create a device that saves thousands of lives. These students will not only impact the long line at the University Bookstore, but also the long line of innovators, entrepreneurs, engineers, pharmacists, and successful people that have once walked the same paths as you and I.

The First Year Advising Center has taken an approach called the Appreciative Advising Model, encouraging our incoming students to dream. Imagine if we, as upperclassmen, also encourage these students to follow those dreams and utilize the resources here to propel them into futures filled with success. From our campus to Cambodia, our students have dreams that span beyond our imagination. I saw them, in colorful sticky notes, plastered upon a glass wall in the student union.

I ended every orientation session with a smile, thanking these new students for their impact on me. These students, in two short days, allowed me to improve my leadership and communication skills, learn more about various academic majors and career interests, and gain more friendly faces welcoming me back to campus this fall. Most of all, these students have inspired me to dream.




right in the feels

Emotions, or feelings, are not everyone’s favorite thing to talk about.


But…The past few weeks in my honors interpersonal communications course, we’ve dedicated our time to learning about, expressing our own, and understanding others’ emotions.

I’ve always known that I’m an emotional person. I have always thought that I wore my heart on my sleeve and my emotions were fairly easy for others to understand, to read. During this three-week exercise, however, I’ve learned an incredible amount about myself and others in my class and even beyond the classroom doors.

Each person in my class was assigned to find a short video that portrayed either how they react to/handle/express emotion, or a video that made them feel a certain emotion. However, we were told to simply find a video that we could explain how it fit the theme. It was a fairly wide topic, I thought nothing of the complexity of this task while sifting through youtube and then my own brain to find a video. In the breadth of this topic, I soon found, each of my classmates found a different perspective.

Several of my classmates found humor the best way to handle emotions and emotion situations. Many others evoked feelings with music; from “Fight Song” to “Cough Syrup” to “Over the Rainbow” to “Concrete Angel” to “Brave” to “If Today Was Your Last Day” —  all of these songs had powerful meaning, some of which I had never before thought about or experienced when hearing that song. The videos, too, held powerful messages packed full with emotion. Another classmate simply attached a satisfying video of a sponge reacting to water being poured on it. He explained that he, like the sponge, soaks up the emotions of those around him and then internalizes all of it. Another spoke about letting emotions out via physical activity and camaraderie on his football team. Another explained how when visiting Greece, she experienced feelings in a place and that place now holds deep emotional meaning for her. Another included a video, entitled “I Don’t Understand God” about how faith is unwavering even throughout confusion and hurt. He explained his desire to be a pastor, and how his faith allows him to feel and express emotion. Another disclosed his depression. Another, her ADD. Myself, my PTSD. Another, his battle with cancer throughout high school. Another, whose routine surgery gone wrong may have left her unable to have children.

Each of us feels, experiences, and discloses emotion differently. For some, it was difficult to stand up and admit to their feelings or their struggles. Others spoke openly.

I always thought that I wore my heart on  my sleeve with my emotions. Some of this, I’ll admit, is true. I cried during many of my classmates presentations. However, I also realized that, like so many of my classmates, my struggle with PTSD may seem well hidden. I’m a positive person, who feels many positive emotions each day. But I struggle, I fall down, I cry. I had no idea that my classmates, who’ve been in my class all semester, had dealt with the issues that they had the courage to speak about during these presentations. It made me realize that we are truly never alone.

What I also realized: emotions are sneaky. They sneak up behind you, they sneak into your mind. You can’t even control which ones end up ‘on your sleeves’.

I have gained so much respect for my classmates. I enjoyed getting to see their perspectives on life and struggle and happiness and all the things in between.

This exercise truly opened my eyes to the depth of what every single person feels. We all feel different things, care about different things, get hurt by different things, feel happiness from different things. If there’s one thing that college has done for me, it has sure opened my mind and my heart to other people’s differences.

My (amazing) professor ended the lesson with these words, “I guess that’s why I don’t like adults as much as my students. Adults get hard. They lose that capacity to understand and appreciate and challenge themselves with others who are different from them. Don’t lose that, folks. That’s a beautiful thing.” 

New Challenge: Accept that others feel as deeply as you do. Open your eyes and your heart. Don’t be afraid to feel.

A friend of mine has recently been struggling, and she has questioned everything she has been feeling. I caught myself saying to her, “You have every right to feel everything you feel.”

You really do.


and here’s me and my cat snuggling.

…sometimes that’s all you need when you’re feeling emotional.




Rose Colored Glasses


“I wish you could see you the way that I see you.”

Has anyone ever heard the expression of wearing “rose colored glasses?” It means to see things in a way as if they may be better than they truly are.

With the people I love, I guarantee that my glasses are the rosiest. When you truly care about someone, everything is good. All flaws disappear, irrelevant when compared to to the beauty of that person’s personality, their laugh, the way their eyes light up with passion… The things that may frustrate you or that aren’t the prettiest aspects of their life submerge, hidden underneath all the perfectly wonderful parts.

I just wish the people I love could see themselves the way I see them. Beautiful. (or Handsome.) Strong. Funny. Passionate. Authentic. Intelligent. Wonderful.

In today’s society, it’s so easy to get wrapped up in everyone else’s ideals of beauty or perfection and being discouraged by others who are so stereotypically perceived as ‘beautiful.’ I do the same. I find myself avoiding the mirror on days like yesterday when I’m sick and had absolutely no energy to do my hair or makeup. For me, it’s always been look good feel good. When I put effort into my appearance, it makes me feel better about myself and the day ahead. People ask why I’m dressed up and I’ll respond, “It’s Tuesday!” Clothes are a way I express myself, but when it comes to doing my hair and makeup I see it as a near-necessity most days.

However, this is changing. I’m surrounded by people who constantly build me up and truly value all my quirks and flaws and parts of me that may be a little rough around the edges. I’m feeling extremely grateful lately for the people in my life who take the time to tell me the positive things, who build me up with kind words, who admire parts of me that I didn’t even know existed.

I always imagine if I could see myself through someone else’s eyes. Not a photograph, not a mirror… completely from someone else’s point of view. Someone who cares about me. There’s another saying… “keep smiling, you never know who’s falling in love with that smile.” Whether this is romantic love or friendship, I think it’s pretty true. If I could see myself through someone else’s eyes: would I love myself? Would I sit in awe of the little things I do that I didn’t even realize? Would I say, “Wow, I look so beautiful when I…”?

In one of my classes we talk a lot about self-awareness, self-image, self-esteem, and self-concept. I guess I’ve always thought of myself as a person with relatively high self-esteem. I think that I’m just a pretty strong person. I have a thick skin. I am also a person who likes to believe that I’m always right… so regardless of other people’s thoughts I still feel fabulous. (**cue Sharpay’s entrance.) 

Still, I have days where I don’t feel beautiful and it’s hard to love myself and give myself the credit I deserve. That’s where the amazing people in my life come in… they wear their rose colored glasses and encourage me to be the best person I can be while simultaneously boosting my mood and filling my heart.

Surround yourself with people who love you so much and care about you so fiercely that they wear their rose colored glasses every day.  I’m absolutely certain that my glasses are on.

My springtime mission: wear my rose colored glasses when I look in the mirror. Cut out the negativity, the questioning, the worries. Surround myself with the people who care. Have fun, have faith, and keep smiling.

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these aren’t quite rose… but hey. ❤


“The person in life that you will always be with the most, is yourself. Because even when you are with others, you are still with yourself, too! When you wake up in the morning, you are with yourself, laying in bed at night you are with yourself, walking down the street in the sunlight you are with yourself.What kind of person do you want to walk down the street with? What kind of person do you want to wake up in the morning with? What kind of person do you want to see at the end of the day before you fall asleep? Because that person is yourself, and it’s your responsibility to be that person you want to be with. I know I want to spend my life with a person who knows how to let things go, who’s not full of hate, who’s able to smile and be carefree. So that’s who I have to be.”

– C. JoyBell C.

Freckles – Natasha Bedingfield 


looking beyond fear…

IMG_6900In my previous post I talked about my sense of adventure being overrun by fear. This week, it took all of my strength to not hyperventilate while the car I was in was weaving in and among the traffic of Minneapolis. Big cities are not my thing. Traffic sends my brain into overdrive and my heart doesn’t stop racing: it’s all just scary to me. I can’t fight it, though I try to maintain my composure.

However, last night, as I cuddled under my covers to fall asleep in my hotel room, I rolled over.

Out the window, not artistically captured with my iPhone camera in the photo above, was the view. From the twelfth floor, I could see sparkling lights of many colors stretching across the city.

It was beautiful.

Light is so powerful, delicately intertwined with positivity, and I couldn’t help but feel more secure knowing that the lights down there were still shining all the way up to my window.

Life is scary, but that doesn’t mean that it can’t be beautiful.


my penthouse suite! (not the best view during the day, but hey!)


•• the girl behind the blog •• feelin’ happy & sassy ••




1. the quality of being worthy of attention; importance.
2. the meaning to be found in words or events.

This word came to mind yesterday as I looked at the scene pictured above. It’s not a sky full of stars, but a sea of cell phone flashlights shining in the darkness at the concert I attended last night. Before I took this photo, I had my flashlight on as well, shining and singing and swaying to the music. Before that, however, I wondered if it was really worth it for me to pull out my phone. My one phone against this sea of people… does it really matter? I wanted to soak in the moment…. but I also wanted to ADD to the moment. I pulled my phone out, and I smiled and swayed and sang. I became a part of the moment.

 Significance. If each of those people across the way had decided that their light wasn’t worth shining, I wouldn’t have gotten to soak in the sight of hundreds of lights shining like stars in the night. I wouldn’t have gotten this photo, which I now adore. Those people may not have realized it… but in turning on the flashlight, they illuminated my smile.

Yesterday was Valentine’s Day. This day has different meanings and feelings evoked in nearly everyone. For some, it’s just another day. For others, it’s a day to love. For some, it’s a day to stay in. Others, a day to go out. Some, to cry or mourn or mend. Others, to laugh or sing or dance. In that way, it’s the same as every other day, but for some reason, this one day can make people feel incredibly strong emotions. “Significant other” comes to my mind as I write this… why is this a term? What is the origin?  If you can’t tell from the photo above, I believe that everyone has significance. Even if you don’t see it…. maybe you’re creating a gorgeous glimpse of a night full of stars for others across the way. Your significance isn’t created by someone else. It can be appreciated by someone else, of course, but not created.

 Never feel like you are insignificant.

 Yes, Valentine’s Day is a day of love. My challenge is to make every day a day of love. Make everyone feel significant… and remember that you are significant. You are the light in the sea of darkness, shining like a star and bringing a smile to the face of someone you may not even know.

…and maybe that girl has a blog. 😉


“Your success and significance in life is tied to the unleashing of the greatness in you.”
― Ifeanyi Enoch Onuoha

Our true significance lies not in the endless comparing of ourselves to one another, trying to see who is the fittest, using scales of evaluation and meaning that differ in the heart and mind of every individual; no – it lies in our deeds alone with the time we have.”
A.J. Darkholme, Rise of the Morningstar

“You’re one in a million.”  -Hannah Montana 


my post-graduation hair cut


I wasn’t a person who loved high school, despite the fact that I immersed myself in fun activities, loved my job, and had enough good times to keep me upbeat for the most part.. I wasn’t satisfied. I wasn’t satisfied with mediocre, or sometimes happy, or attempting to fit the status quo, or feeling lonely, or any of that. I was satisfied with one thing, however… my hair.

Today, I posted a selfie. (yeah, I know.) In the photo, I was surprised to see that my hair looked so long. I cut my hair, about 8 inches, just a couple of weeks after graduation, ridding myself of some weight I had been carrying around… both literally and figuratively. I loved it. I loved the freedom and maturity I felt with it lightly dancing on my collarbone. I loved my tiny little pigtails that I wore while hiking and I loved throwing on my hat and letting my hair do whatever it pleased underneath. Some people told me, “You were prettier with long hair.” or “I miss your long hair!” or “How could you get rid of all that beautiful hair?” But I had to. It was my “big jump” into adult life (or so I thought) and leaving behind my security blanket of hair was a simple part of the transition.

Recently, I’ve been growing my hair back out.. with hair that grows relatively quickly, it has slowly crept towards the length it was back in high school. I can now do the things I missed doing: messy buns, a simple braid, et cetera. But as I was looking at myself, with hair that feels and looks so long to me now… I flashed back to high school, where the end of my hair was much closer to my belly button than my collarbone. I remember a rumor that had been started about me once… that I had gotten extensions. I remember being so bothered by this, the fact that someone had the time of day to think of such ridiculousness… I remember being confused as to why anyone would care. I remember being asked, “Why did you get extensions?” I remember thinking that my hair had been this long for a long time but NOW people are noticing because of a rumor that this hair is fake? I remember being hurt. That’s a feeling I remember a lot from high school.

This rumor, along with so many others, plagued me during high school. But the purpose of this blog is not to hate on high school or complain about my experience. Instead, I have risen from the ashes… or the hair that scatters on the floor post-haircut. I have grown miraculously since graduation. The weight I carried around wasn’t just from my abundance of hair, but it was from all the negativity in my life. As I grow my hair longer and longer, I can’t help but feel a bit sad that I look more similar to the girl I was in high school. But that’s another thing you learn in college: appearances mean nothing. I am NOT the girl I was in high school. I am NOT the girl that is defined by others. I am NOT hurt, or lonely, or satisfied with mediocrity.

I am happy, healthy, changed, and love myself more than I have ever before. And today… I had a good hair day. {More than that, however, I had a good day. I’ve had a seriously fantastic string of good days lately.}

To the girls that are considering the post-graduation chop in a few months: hair is hair is hair, no matter what the length. YOU are the one who will continually surprise yourself with personal growth!





I work at tech support. It’s not exactly glamorous… but it’s an awesome learning experience. One of my favorite sights at work: the inside of a computer. The motherboard, the hub, the source of all knowledge… the motherboard is what gives the computer it’s purpose, and allows it to fulfill all the tasks. So that’s neat.

However, that’s not really why I love the inside of a computer. When I see the inside of a computer, like this mac in the featured image, it reminds me of flying over a city at night. Each little building, all the little lights, all the little dots on the motherboard… they have purpose. Each little light on in the city has a purpose. One light is a teen girl’s computer as she blogs her thoughts in words. One light is a family playing late night board games and laughing around the table. One light is a college student, studying all night for a chemistry final. One light is a flashlight under a blanket, a student staying awake and discovering a passion for reading. One light is a grandma knitting a blanket. One light is two newlyweds dancing around their apartment. Each light, each tiny dot, each moment, has purpose. Each of these lights, these dots, symbolize a part of a working whole. The little boxes or buildings on the motherboard landscape could be a school where learning happens or the factory that employs half the city. Each thing, each place, has purpose.

We are the motherboard. We are the ones who make the decisions that truly impact our system as a whole. In order for the system to work efficiently, each piece should fulfill its purpose.

I’ve been trying to do things lately that have a purpose, avoiding spending (too much) time watching Netflix or just sitting around on my phone. I know, however, that these things have their time and their purpose of relaxation and fulfillment.

I’m trying to prioritize according to things that matter rather than find purpose in mundane tasks. Last week, I sat down to watch some Netflix. Then I decided to call my mom instead. We had an awesome hour-long conversation that lifted me up for the whole day and eased some homesickness.

My mission for this (week/month/insert time frame here) is to seek purpose in my life, realize and utilize it, and to act on my purpose and find purpose in others.

I want to remember the motherboard, and how each tiny piece has it’s purpose to make the system run. I want to be a light in a city as someone flies overhead and thinks of the possibilities. I want to be the light in someone’s life. I want to be filled with purpose and belonging and aim to make my light in the dark city shine brightly and to make my system, my society, the best it can possibly be.

There is so many quotes about what the purpose of life is. I love all of them. There are so many purposes in life. Everyone has a different one. What is your purpose? How do you define it?




“You were put on this earth to achieve your greatest self, to live out your purpose, and to do it courageously.” – Steve Maraboli

“The purpose of life is to contribute in some way to making things better.” – Robert F. Kennedy

“The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.” – Eleanor Roosevelt


kid in a candy store

IMG_6246“I want to look at life like a kid in a candy store.”

This is how I captioned my Instagram photo earlier today, (@alexfarbie),  following a visit to an adorable little shop called Goodies Handmade Candies in Spirit Lake, Iowa during a little midday adventure as I visit a friend.

There wasn’t any long thought process that went into this caption, it kind of just came to me…. but it really got me thinking! It’s crazy how something profound can come around in the simplest way.

Think of it: a kid in a candy store. Eyes wide, mouth open and watering, and eager anticipation of what is to come. Bright colored jelly beans, delicate chocolates.. each of these can act as a metaphor for opportunities waiting to be unwrapped and savored.

It’s a new year, and it is now time to re-open our eyes to the world and see the beauty and opportunity that surrounds us to devour every worldly candy that is offered to us in life.

I am slowly learning to overcome fear and anxiety and to consume adventure and the happiness that can come from new places and experiences. Today, we took a detour to a small town candy store and it sparked not only hunger but deep thoughts in my mind.

Each day I am shown the true beauty of my surroundings and given the opportunity to scoop up life’s colorful jellybeans by the handful and not to pick out the icky flavors but instead learn to fill my next handful with more of my favorites. Maybe it’s time to add a few nutty friends to your fudge. Maybe the sticky taffy is life telling you to shut up and listen for a little while. Maybe that one’s sour, but the next one is oh-so-sweet. Maybe it’s time to have a salad… or mix a few candy flavors and call it one.

So yes, I want to look at the world like a kid in a candy store. I want to see the positive, bright colors and new flavors that the world has to offer. I want to devour the opportunities. I want a sugar high on life. I want to buzz with excitement for each new day. I want a belly ache from laughter, and hope, and love. I want to be a kid in the candy store.

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“A bag of Bertie Bott’s Every Flavor Beans. “You want to be careful with those,” Ron warned Harry. “When they say every flavor, they mean every flavor – you know, you get all the ordinary ones like chocolate and peppermint and marmalade, but then you can get spinach and liver and tripe. George reckons he had a booger-flavored one once.” 

Ron picked up a green bean, looked at it carefully, and bit into a corner. “Bleaaargh – see? Sprouts.”  – Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone


“My mama always said, ‘Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.’” – Forrest Gump


“I want candy.” – Aaron Carter




All I Ever Wanted.

Tonight, I cried. Not only during Mockingjay Part Two… but afterwards, when a girl that I view as a “little sister” and friend gave me a letter, and I took it home to read it.

I open the letter, and I see that it contains two pages. I start to read, and then I come across the words, “This week in Language Arts we got an assignment. The assignment was to write a paragraph about someone in our life who is our role model. I chose you!”

As I finished the letter, I couldn’t wait to flip to the other page. As I read the words, a huge smile spread across my face. My favorite saying to express this feeling is “my heart is so full.” That’s exactly the feeling. Not only am I so utterly proud of this girl and her attitude towards life, challenges and all, but I am so proud to have been a part of her life. She wrote that “Alex taught me that I shouldn’t let what other people think of me, affect how I think of myself,” and that is how I know that I succeeded. In junior high, and high school, it is so easy to believe what others think as truth. I just want her to know how beautiful she is, how smart she is, how talented she is, and how kind she is, and to remember that no one can change her life, and her opinion of herself, but her.

This feeling, this pride beyond belief and happiness beyond words, is all I ever wanted. The words “role model” are probably some of my favorites, because I truly believe you are shaped by your environment and the choices you make. When I was selected for leadership roles, I always loved the opportunity to use my position to impact girls and teenagers and to make them smile. Being a girl is hard sometimes, and it’s nice to look up and see that someone a few years ahead of you seems to have it going in the right direction.

In high school, I wasn’t the homecoming queen, or the star athlete, or the top of my class, or even the nicest. However, I made many decisions that I am proud of. I chose to work hard at school, I chose not to party, I chose to prioritize, I chose to use my voice, I chose to make a difference, and I chose to move on from the little things.

So, no, I wasn’t the prettiest or smartest or best. What I am, I now know, is a role model… and that is all I ever wanted.


P.S. I love you, Emma. I am so proud of the young woman you have become. I am proud to have been your role model.

my medicine & drug of choice

Today I had a moment that I loved so much that I had to write about it. I probably have a moment like this at least every other day. Maybe that’s what makes it so great: it can reoccur so frequently.

The moment that I’m talking about is that moment when you’re in the middle of laughter. Head back, loud cackle-turned-belly laugh, double chin, abs aching, right before you begin to wheeze and maybe even cry a little bit and at that moment you’re not even sure why you’re laughing but everything is just funny… yeah, right smack dab in the middle of that. That moment. There’s nothing on your mind at that moment, not even the thing that was funny.. it’s just pure joy. That’s why I like the picture above. Hair-mustache, wind, laughter, lake water, good times, sunshine… (and cute accessories on my super tan skin. Man, winter can be a bummer sometimes). Captured laughter just reminds you of the good times. It’s perfect.

Today, as my head is back and I’m laughing out loud, I feel that happiness.  Of course, this laughter is due, in part, to the amazing people I surround myself with who constantly have me laughing out loud. I laugh and I forget all the crap in the world, in my life. I’ve even been told I have an ‘ugly’ laugh when my good ol’ cackle comes out to play. To me, it’s like the sound of a symphony. Laughter is happiness.

Laughter is the best medicine, as cliché as it sounds, and that middle-of-laughter moment is my favorite. It’s almost as if time moves in slow motion so you can soak in that feeling for just a little while longer. I want to have that moment every day. When time stands still and your heart is filled with light and joy and friendship and silliness… that’s my medicine and my drug of choice.

I hope I have this moment again tomorrow, and possibly every single day of my life. & I hope you do too.


“I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it’s the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It’s probably the most important thing in a person.”
― Audrey Hepburn